The romance

Horrible feeling falling in love is, You wanna tell her everything you are feeling, but you know it will only mess it up. she is constantly on your mind like the annoying song you can't get outta your head. The feeling that she isn't bothered, the feeling of chasing a lost cause. you try to forget abt her telling your self you r being silly, you try to convince yourself that it's just a passing phase. you want her to give you tiny bits of details abt how she is feeling. You lose the ability to be your self, you have a plan and you keep messing it up. The feeling that with every attempts you to try to bring her closer you are pushing her away, you know your r jus gonna fail. Then there is the fight between what is rite and what you want, the guilt of trying and the guilt of not, you want her to feel something then what is the point you might as well fuck it and move on.