Social anxiety

Room full of people
I don't fear you,
All those judging eyes,
Cannot Pierce though
My defenses.

1) (one), My completely blank mind.
Leaving my head dislodged,
For a few temporary minutes,
So no thoughts ever cross.

2) (two), My fast paced walk.
Will leave your judgements,
Gasping for air,
As they cannot be followed,

3) (three), The very last chair,
Behind a trusted few,
Barriers that can conceal,
The Haven.

The familiar stranger,
I know I have to greet,
If you see any of these,
I am trying to.

1) (one), The curl of the lips,
Because, my full smile is creepy,
And if not reciprocated,
The curl is disguised as a twitch.

2) (two), The uninterrupted stare,
A sign of acknowledgement,
That I know you, "hey, there,
I have seen you around".

3) (three), The head nod,
Upwards, downwards, sideways,
Because my limbs are frozen,
This is all I could manage.

All my house guests,
Who I don't know personally.
I have to dodge,
The small talk and akward silences.
I have certain protocols.

1) (one), Not coming out,
Of my tiny lair,
My Scheming station,
If there is even a hint of visitors.

2) (two), When the door bell rings,
I go hide in my room,
Yes, even when I am over 20.
Never even turning to have a second look.
Let someone else deal with it.

3) (three), When caught off guard,
I stand up politely,
Offer you the place to sit,
Even if all the chairs are empty,
As I march off to my pit.

When a shy guy tries to be cocky

His humour is rudeness,
He Spits venom,
trying to be funny,
His sacasms are abuses.
Silly his cover,
He hides his akwardness with.
His loudness
therapy for all the time
He could'nt speak when he wanted to.
Over compensated laughter/smile,
Nervousness's sidekick.
Proud ramblings,
Bridges over his insecure pits.
Exaggerated enthusiasm,
Needed to push his legs
Against the locks trying to hold
Him in his place.

How to overcome social anxiety

   
       We are all afraid, some more than others, we are afraid to initiate a conversation, to stand up on the stage and speak, to stand up for things we believe in or even be a little different from the crowd.
      We believe we are judged, constantly in everything we do, everything we say, sometimes we are, but most often what we don't realise is people are usually so preoccupied with themselves, that, they just don't care.
       How to overcome this fear of being rediculed or judged or being laughed at?

          The answer is very simple and we all know it, "Practice", how did you overcome the fear of riding the bike? By beginning to ride it and you kept riding it everyday until one day it seemed like a child's play.
         That is how you overcome social anxiety do everything you fear, not necessarily the things that contradict your principles and things that you think will have bad consequences but do the little things you always wanted to do but was too frightned to Or do the most silliest thing you could think of, things that you think will embarrass you to death like dancing on the road , Laying down on the subway , asking for the phone number from a random hot stranger , just do it you will realise that nothing bad will happen, even if some people do judge, you will learn to shrugg it off.
         1)  Make a list of things that you have always wanted to do but was so frightned to.  Eg- Just go say that you are in love with your crush today.

          If keep doing those things you are scared of everyday you will eventually get used to  facing your fears, you will be liberated from your confirmist prison. You will soon understand fear is just a thron sticking on the foot, might neva leave you unless you decide to throw it away.